Muzic....

Music!!! the elixir for many ppl. It makes ppl relieve their stress (though some music create stress to those listening without indent)...Its my attempt to write something other than my life and not mmuch related to me...of late I started to listen to some music mostly melodies...melodies soothes me so much that I can keep listening to the same song and sometimes sing along with the tunes (wrongly)...But the flip side is tht when one feels down, really down, listening to such melodies can only provocate his inner emotions and lose control over one's self....some ppl cry, some switch off the player, some enjoy the pain...On the contrary, there is all those rock, pop, hip-hop etc. etc...am not an expert in this field...those are fun time music...party music...ppl feel light hearing them...rather the noise (sound) overtakes the important of lyrics...

My choice mostly are melodies...gud old songs..though new songs are not bad either...yuvan and ARR are making gud ones...forgot to mention harris jayaraj...sometime I enjoy hearing hindi melodies..there I cant understand the lyrics and tht makes the music all the more enjoyable (for obvious reasons, it doesnt cause pain)...

Sometimes all those kuthu songs and fast numbers score more than melodies and makes one hooked to them, but then their success is short lived, guess how many of us still murmur "mala mala" or " seena thaana" song....

Thts all I hav to say abt my latest love...be back with more stufs...

The remembrance!!!

This weekend has been so far, quite mentally tough for me...I regret seeing that movie yesterday, not because its boring but it made me remember quite a few things which I was desperately trying to forget. Today, I tried to indulge myself with some fun stufs with a totally fun filled movie(as they say it, though for me its full of marana mokka) and some shopping to overcome yesterdays effect. It was then, I went to this restaurant "dosa calling", to try some new food. I entered in to the restaurant, and there is this manager or co-ordinator or whtever U call, she is not an attendant or server, lets call her 'The manager' welcomed us in to the restaurant. The moment I saw her I was in for a shock as her face and figure reminded me of someone special in my life. They call it fate and I was showed a place facing the entrance of the restaurant where she was standing and managing the restaurant. She was a third person to me and I must admit that she wouldnt hav bothered anyone in the restaurant tht time. It was me or my inner feeing I must admit which made my brief moment in the restaurant a truly, I wont say horrible but a strange experience. I was unable to look at her and was trying to avoid seeing her, though she is only a third person to me and from the place I was sitting, Its virtually unable to avoid seeing her for if I have behaved in a casual manner. I blame myself for my strange feeling, for its only because of me I am unable to forget such memories. I know trying to erase such memories can only go in vain...somehow I hav to try and live with it. But, such instances like the one which has happened today and yesterday make me worry. I hope such things doesnt happen but I know its difficult for whtever I see there s some element which will remind me of my past with tht phase of my life. To conclude, even though its a sweet remembrance sometimes it leaves us in embarrassing situation. Hope all is for best. I feel relieved now.

First Love!!!

Everyone has a first love...Love for different things on different people. A childs first love is obviously its mother...as we grow older at different stages of life, we love different things, be it a doll, a bicycle, ice cream, chocolates...but wht am referring here as first love is obviously the first girl in one's life...(I can tell from a guy's perspective only as girls are difficult to decipher)...Well, I dont want to make this post about love andall those stufs which has been consuming hell a lot of time for no gud at this phase of my life...but for once writing something about these things, i feel, might lessen the burden in my heart (I say heart cos there is no mind involved here..heart always win over mind)..

Love in itself is a wonderful feeling and it was portrayed at its best in the movie I watched today...the movie has its own flaws but its the nearest realistic portrayal of love and its effects.. vinnai thandi varuvaya - VTV...guys dont worry am not goin to write review on the movie...

One great thing about a story teller is making the audience relate to the story which he / she tells with some character or part of the movie with the life of the audience...menon has done it perfectly and I could relate to the story in both his recent movies...I dont knw whether its a coincidence but then, it happens...

oh yeah..about the first love...tht was my subject...well to say in one word, it last forever...for a guy the first love in his life is something to cherish about throughout his lifetime...all those experience he gets out of it...a few ppl are infact lucky to make it success. Though many first love just goes untold.....mostly starts during the schooling age, few victims losing concentration in studies, few lucky ones gets motivates (like me)....

In any case, every person must have experienced this feeling, may be some call it as crush...give any name it leaves a mark in your life which I guess is hard to erase...

The weekend!!!

Its been one of the packed weekends I hav experienced so far....lot of travel, get together with family and friends...I just loved the train journey in particular (who doesnt like), whenever I get an opportunity to go by train I feel little excited. I dont know whts the reason, may be I havent travelled much by train, may be I like tht mode of transport, may be the fact tht I havent tried flying even once...

I met my collegemates, though the time we spent was little, I felt quite light at heart forgetting all those non-sense I used to keep thinking all day when am idle courtesy to all those mokkai's...sunday wasnt easy at all...tested my skills in being in a group of ppl and I would say I failed miserably....the thing is tht I met all my relatives (extended family, all close one's) after almost 4 years and they were surprised to see me at such a small function (surprise to me tht I could bump in to all of them at once, couldnt quite handle all of them at once). I tried to manage a bit, trying to mingle but then I dont know something stops me from talking freely...guess if I start talking its difficult to stop and I end up revealing too much, may be this consciousness prevents me from interacting too much...I should try to be part of some of the family function in the near future so that I atleast know who are the new entries (the new born kids) and also to show my face once in a while so tht they dont end up asking who I am, like they did this time around...

Overall it was quite hectic in my words the weekend was but U need to suffer a little to get all those happy moments like wht I hav got in this week....A weekend to remember...and I forgot to mention, the early morning ride in chennai was quite fantastic and I enjoyed it not once but twice :)

The truth, the betrayal...

Ever wondered when we get really get hurt, betrayed or feel let down...It happened to me recently...though from outside or for tht matter to the person who did tht to me it might not seem like its a big deal...but when U trust a person a lot, make him feel tht he is one of the special person in ur life and ready to go an extra step in all his interest and in return wht U get is just a third person treatment not once but twice is really hurting. The fact is tht there is mistake in my part to expect all to be like wht I am or in other words, expectation always disappoints U.

The fact that the first effort I have ever taken to give some fun time to those whom I really love, my family, was hindered to some extent by such an act (to be true, it was a very casual approach by the person who did it, may be its their character) for It would have been a great evening otherwise. Even then, my family will love me for whtever I am.
This is one learning got the hard way. Moral is tht, U need not be gud to everyone. When ppl around U just dont care for U, there's no point in taking care of them. At the end of the day it hurts when they let u down...isn't it true??

One yr to the day.....

It's been exactly one year since I seriously got down and wrote something which I would say life defining...though I regret writing those stufs now, tht time I felt relieved doing tht. Some of my wellwishers who were veterans and more experienced in such matters in fact advised me against writing such an e-mail to the person whom I value the most. I went against them and right now, here after one year am definitely a changed, induvidual than I was a year ago.

So, for all those who were at the verge of taking a life defining decision my sincere advise would be not to take decision in the heat of the matter and postpone them as much as possible, for once U take some decision U risk all tht U were having till then....

P.S: For those who cant understand wht was written above, I dont give a damn...

Yet another attempt!!!!

Hello evry1...

well this is my third attempt to start blogging. However, this time around I wish I could keep this blog alive and pen down all my random thoughts here...It all started when i was in my final year during a pragyan day (college's so called tech fest) when i started to write my first blog. I seriously dont remember when I tried next but vaguely remember the attempt was spoiled by my impatience to find a suitable URL as whtever I chose wht rejected by the service provider. This time around am trying to make a sincere effort, though for myself and want to make the long hours I get in the evenings of some use.

Though there is no clear inspiration for y i started to do this (blogging), am sure i can write much better crap than most others do....

P.S:

1. Dont expect me to write movie reviews as I go to the movie to enjoy and relax during the 2.5 odd hours and not to take notes and re-release in this page.

2. Dont ever expect me to write a review on books which I read...the thing is tht I dont read much, even if I do I tend to forget the characters and even the author's name in some case the moment I flip the last page.

3. Dont expect me to write reviews on music, I shd be the last person to write a review on music though I enjoy gud melodies and gud kuthu songs...and I forgot to mention, pardon me if I use my native language somewhere in my blogs...afterall U cant express certain things better in other languages as U do it in ur mother tongue...

So...guys, here it is...Bala's random thoughts for U....